Monday, 25 October 2010

‘Why not? Szathmáry. J (2010) Chapter One

He looked at me as he comfortable sat down onto the big armchair next to the large sash window.

‘Why not? What can you lose? Now that you know what you know there is nothing measurably difficult to accomplish, but it is up to you. You are in charge, only you can make that decision and the way things are going something needs to be done. It doesn’t have to be you but it is up to you’.

His presence filled the room. He had an enormous presence, which was uplifting, reassuring, sharp, and at the same time childishly serious.

You know that it is not an easy decision- I replied.

He looked deep into my eyes so deep that forms slightly started fading around us. He held his vision right into my soul, which resonated with mine.

‘Remember who you are. Focus on the greater collective good, rather than your individual loss or gain. Imagine the world you want your great grandchildren to live and strive in. Envision all the beauties, freedoms and joys of a truly fulfilled life, and decide how this would help perpetuate those gifts’.

He reached across the coffee table and opened up a beautiful silver box, which was engraved, with his initials and a quote, which appeared to be in Latin, but I was not able to read the scribe. He carefully took out a cigar and lit it.

‘You know very well that what you were involved in was not going to benefit future generations in the way in which you intended to. That is the reason you decided to stop what you were doing. You understood that sometimes the cost of self control is simply too high.

In order to fit in, you were suppressing a tremendous emotional charge and it started taking a toll on your body. This lightning bolt instead of being released to find its target, started to get grounded and trapped within your body, zapping your internal organs and your nervous system. The energy became too intense to contain.

It happens when for a long time we suppress the truth that should be acknowledged, spoken and acted upon. You knew that taking those steps you have taken will set loose that lightening and by doing so you will create permanent change.

You made a choice, allowing your desperate desire to be on the other side of the issue. You overcame the fear of invoking change. You made the first step’.

He looked at me and smiled.

‘Isn’t this what I taught you to do in your work? Now you know how hard it is and at the same time how liberating it is for those who practise overcoming their fear under your guiding hands’.

‘Remember who you are and choose your path’.

I closed my eyes and quietly said. Okay.

‘Well? He said, as he hadn’t heard me. Are you going to choose?’

I silently giggled, stood up, went to my desk and picked up a notebook. Why not? I scribbled on the first page.

This is going to be the title of it.

He nodded and stretched out in the armchair, quietly acknowledging that I remembered what he taught me; that decisions are not made with words, but with actions.

He relaxed in the knowing that I was going to do it.

From his point of view things were so much easier and simpler. He didn’t have a physical body anymore, but he couldn’t influence the physical as much as I could either.

I had a great respect for him, but he told me once; -don’t put anyone on a pedestal, if for some silly reason you do, imagine them having a ‘rush’. It will stop you.

‘You my dear girl, first and foremost learn to respect yourself. Once you achieved that, you made the first step to accomplishing what you came here for’.

I have known him for a long time. Our friendship started about 30 years ago. These kinds of friendships don’t happen by mere accidents. One day he told me this when we were sitting under a big pine tree in the forest. ‘There are no accidents in life, if people were more aware, they would read the signs and use them as guidelines. There is so much guidance available and brought forth only by our sheer existence, just by being alive’

Picture: Michael Angelo Creation of Adam 'Hands' from Google Images

Thursday, 21 October 2010

Orbs...Can you find them on the photos?

Photos taken for record keeping at the Conductive Education Support Centre New Forest UK.

Today is the first frosty morning in the
New Forest UK.

"My! My! Time flies! A man in a winter sleigh, white white white as the snow

My! My! Time flies! A new day is on it's way, so let's let yesterday go

Could be we step out again

Could be tomorrow but then,

Could be 2010"

Enya My my time flies...

Sunday, 17 October 2010


One Day Workshops

Saturday 30th October 10.00am -3.00pm


Sunday 7th November 10.00am-3.00pm

Book your place now!

07967 194433

Workshop fee: £111

Venue: 2 Bridge Farmhouse,
Lyndhurst Road,
Brockenhurst SO42 7TR

Please bring your camera with you!

Display picture from the late Conductive Education Support Centre in New Forest.
Michael Angelo Creation of Adam, 'Hands' Google Images
Cave Hands Google Images

Tuesday, 5 October 2010

“It is good to feel good"

"Clarity is your natural state of being, eager is your natural state of being, loving is your natural state of being.

It is natural for you to have a desire… it is natural for you to anticipate happy outcomes.

It is natural for you to love and to sing and it is natural for you to play, it is natural for you to be joyful and it is natural for you to feel and know well-being.

It is natural for you to expand… it is natural for you to want more.

It is natural for you to question, it is natural for you to find interest.

It is natural for you to want more and it is natural for you to feel good…and anything else is resisting the natural state of who you are…” A H

Notes: Photos from the work at the Conductive Education Support Centre, New Forest UK. Parent and child group photo 1999.
The art of collapsing with laughter! after practising independent walking July 2010.